A lot. I can’t make it go away. It insists on stuffing itself down my throat, pounding into my head, grazing the recesses of my eyes, clouding my wind pipe and making it difficult for me to breathe. I do everything I can to make it go away…I walk in the fresh air, I sing a song, I dance, I talk to friends, I read a book but it continues to stifle me. Its become an enemy. My own thought is my enemy. I can’t stop, I can’t sleep, I can’t rest. It makes me feel miserable and there seems to be no way out of my own head. I always thought I was the best with stress…nothing would beat my spirit but I was wrong and right now I don’t know how to beat the despair. It has stopped coming. Now, it simply stays. How? How am I gonna win this struggle. How am I gonna beat myself. I want to…desperately…but for now I am losing. Losing badly. I have to do it. I have to find a way. I have to.